Here we are one year later

Here we are one year later

Dec 30

This blog hasn’t been a priority and I apologize if you actually read it on some sort of regular basis. What can I say- I work full time (plus more) and I have a young toddler my attention is shifted and rarely do I spare some me time to actually sit in reflection in front of a computer.
ANYWAY.

One year ago I was sleeved. I let a doctor and one sexy machine go in and trim up the old guts. It was the best decision I could have made for myself. I am healthier and happier. I have a new mindset (well I work on gaining a new mindset) towards positive growth in my life.

The year has brought challenges of course and forced me to address some of my inner emotional demons of how I cope with stress, being alone, boredom and other things I’m not comfortable in addressing at this point. I’ve just begun to stir up that fire.

I am happy and active in spurts and sad and lazy in spurts just like before.

I’ve stopped being the “crazy funny one” in exchange I’m finding myself more introspective and independent (could be me growing up). I’ve found myself being cruel to myself for no reason at times in reflection to my behaviors – mainly my foods of choice and I’m replacing that monolog with something a bit more productive.

I’m 97lbs lighter. Yes, I didn’t hit my 100lbs in one year goal. I could cry about this if I wanted to but honestly with my eating/working out behavior in the last month I didn’t deserve to loose that last couple of pounds. I was bad to myself and I know this. I don’t blame the holidays I blame loosing a bit of focus and being off my schedule mostly. But were getting sidetracked here a bit…..did I hear myself say 97lbs? Hell yes!

Apparently I lost a Demi Moore!
Hot damn!

I’ve lost 37.5 inches from my body.

That’s apparently the width of this bulls horns.
Isn’t the internet awesome?

I’m proud. Very proud of my successes. Much more to come in the new year.

I will keep you updated more often. But, that’s not a promise.

Making plans and taking action: Scuba

Making plans and taking action: Scuba

Dec 04

Well guys I have my first intro scuba class on Tuesday. So freaking excited I can’t tell ya. It’s one of the top things I wanted to do when I lost weight. I’m not at my goal by far. But, why would I want to wait to do the things I want to do?

My delusion that one day I will be Martha Stewart: Meal Planning

My delusion that one day I will be Martha Stewart: Meal Planning

Nov 25

Ok you got me. I’m a mess when it comes to things like meal planning.
I realize that meal planning is one of many keys to success with weight loss.

I can’t seem to sit down and actually write out a list of the things I want to eat for the week before I get in my car and go to the store.
Seems simple right? Well for me it’s near impossible to make that extra step….so I’m working on it

I saw this idea on pinterest

Instantly I was glamorized into thinking that I too could join the world of the hyper-organized.
Everything matched, how very Martha! Everything seems to be perfect. It’s SO within my grasp!
I could see myself swaying over with my pearls and heels and delighting in the glory of planning out a week…or (GASP) even a whole month of healthy choices for my family.

Wanting this little dream to be realized I ordered some magnetic sheets off Amazon here

I downloaded the forms online here I must note that I hated that you can’t alter the font but that’s the snob in me

Here are my pages if you would like to steal them

Printed it all out and stuck it all together and cut all the little bits and pieces out

Then I cleaned off this thing which was a catch-all thing in our laundry room serving no purpose what so ever. I bought it at IKEA years ago and I’ve been lugging it around ever since.

Anyways, it’s up- clean and ready for me to use…..well that was a month ago. So far I haven’t used it once. Lots of effort for no result.
I’m no Martha. But that’s ok- I don’t think she is either.

So…..what do you guys do to organize and plan your meals?

Choo Choo

Choo Choo

Nov 24

Something to think about this Thanksgiving for all my bariatric sisters and brothers as we sit closer to the table then we did last year.

I don’t know this lady but you can buy a copy of the print here Etsy in my crack addiction

Month 11: How you doin’

Month 11: How you doin’

Nov 23

So hello strangers.

I have neglected this site for sure. But, let me update you on my weight loss progress.
1. I’ve joined a 12 week support group which has been wonderful for cleaning out the shit in my head, planning on bigger goals that don’t involve the obsession with the size of my body and weight loss. For the most part, the topics are things I know and everyone knows (i.e. identifying barriers, eliminating barriers and stuff like that) but for some reason it really helps me to hear it again and again. Something is “clicking” with me when I go to these little meetings.
And believe me I’m not a “let’s all get together and share” type of person. I’m very private when it comes down to my deeper emotions. The stuff on the top no problem- but when you start digging into my brain I do everything but clam up.

2. I signed up for scuba classes and to get my scuba certification. My husband actually bought it for me for Christmas. Can’t wait for that. It’s something I always wanted to accomplish but I felt I was to heavy to wear a wetsuit. It’s amazing to me how I’ve held myself back from things I want to do over little things like “oh I won’t look good in this, or I’m afraid of what other people will think” what a crock.

3. I signed up for AND did my first 5K. Now mind you I didn’t run but I finished it never the less. It occurred to me while I was walking that I wouldn’t have even had a 5K as a goal a year ago.

4. I went on a cruise for my five year anniversary. It was fine but not what I expected to be honest. We will be trying it again after our little one gets a bit older. Basically for five days I chased him around the boat and got him ice cream. Fun but not relaxing one bit.

5. I’m making an effort to make each day valuable. Oh how nauseating! Yup, it’s true.

6. I’ve started going to a nutritionalist. She pointed out that I’m basically starving myself in the early morning and that’s why when I hit the house about 5-6 I binge eat whatever I can find until dinner. With that pep talk I’ve started packing larger lunches and a small snack (usually a cheese stick) for the way home. I also started cleaning for 15 minutes when I get home to avoid the kitchen – I think that works better then anything. Plus, someday I might be able to see my garage floor.

7. Speaking of garage floors. I’ve faced the truth to my overconsumption of everything. Shopping & eating. I am trying to make amends to this.

8. Meal planning. Im going to create a whole post over this because I believe it’s been helping me out quite a bit.

Total weight loss: 96 lbs yes, I’m sort of my 100lb goal for the year but I still have time. Even if I don’t hit the 100 mark I’m still doing well for myself. At month 7 I said I was down 93 lbs I was actually down 83 I noticed I made a mistake in my logging but never went back and corrected it. What can I say? Whoops!